Becoming Superhuman

I have spent some time this morning thinking. No, more than thinking; getting my thoughts organized. There is a big difference between where I am now and where I want to be. I know that had things turned out differently in my past, I could be where I want to be right now...or I could be even further. It is, however, useless to think about what would have been or could have been. I cannot change the past no matter how hard I try. I want to though.

My thought process this morning was focused on what I wanted out of life. What I want right now that I can do something about. For example, I want a successful career. I can start working on that now. I want to be physically healthy and, let's face it, sexy. I can start that now too! I want to be scholarly in my knowledge of my field of study. Yeah, that is possible too! I want a girlfriend that will become my wife. I want to magnify my church calling perfectly. I want to travel around the world. I want to read all of the literary classics. I want to learn to cook. I want to be perfect in a set daily schedule. I want to impact the world through my brilliant intellectual and productive capacities.

I want. I want. I want.

I have too many wants and I am beginning to be convinced that "I want" is one of the most toxic phrases against human progress. To get everything that I want, I would need to become superhuman. I would have to have more hours in the day to accomplish it all. I would have to be able to escape the necessity of sleep. I would have to escape physically pains and sicknesses that would slow me down. I would have to magically have the perfect personality and work ethic.

But I am not superhuman. And I cannot have everything I want. Not right now.

So instead, I have to flip my paper over from my expansive list of what I want and title this new page, "What Do I Need?"

This list is a lot shorter; a lot more manageable. I need my Savior. I need His gracious forgiveness and mercy. I need His strength because I am mortal and weak. I need His encouragement that I can eventually meet all of my desires. I need His hands to bless me and lift me from the depths of depression. I need His love. And I have it. I have what I need. I am going to be okay.

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