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Emotions and Self-Worth

So this post is divided into two parts based on some major thought processes that I have had these past couple of days. I feel like there should be some sort of relation between the two but I don't want to make them related and try to force causation. In any case, the first regards the issues stated in my previous blog post about SAD and the second concerns a concept that revisited me with great force during my church today. #1 Emotions Writing about my Seasonal Affective Disorder  has been such a huge blessing for me as an individual. In doing so, I was able to just let it all out. It was a needed release. Since that point, I have been making more of an effort to remain in control of my life and my feelings. I have never tried this hard before, but I guess that it a good thing. Maybe I am finally progressing. Well, I have learned something:  It is hard to be totally in control. I say this because of an experience yesterday. Waking up I felt confused about a lot of differen

My Yearly Battle With...

I don’t expect you to understand. Very few people ever will. My actions, my thoughts my feelings. In my life, all of these are always dictated by me…well, almost always. You see, there comes a time each year when my body succumbs to life’s pressures in a way that is almost completely uncontrollable. That said it is time for me to come clean about something that I have battled for a while. An occurrence that for so long has caused me to label myself as weak. My battle is with Seasonal Affective Disorder commonly referred to as SAD or Winter Depression. I don’t expect you to understand. I don’t expect you to care. I do expect that you will have patience. As a child, my personality radiated. Full of excitement, laughter, and energy, I was my parents’ greatest joy and favorite terror. Keeping active in my young age also kept me busy and gave me a social aspect to life that is necessary for children. I was a gymnast. I had a place in something important. It wasn’t long before I gav